Need to vent.....

So about a week or two ago i had an interview at my job for a higher position. Honestly i was not really sure i really wanted to job. I was torn and had really iffy feelings about the whole thing. But i did it anyway. It was not the best interview i ever had, but i thought it was pretty good. There were two of us internaly that were going for this job. And then they interviewed like 7 people outside of the company. Anyway, on Friday i came back from lunch and found that my co-worker was in his second interview. A friend of mine came up to me and said that he was in the top three and that this was his second interview. I said what a good way for me to find out i am not in the running any longer.

I was so pissed. I am not pissed that i am not in the running any more. I am mad and upset that i have been with this company for almost 5 years and they did not have the respect to come to me before hand and say, Michelle I am sorry however, we have decided to go a different route. No that would be way too easy for them. No one has said anything to me as of yet. I am really upset by this. I am trying to be the bigger person and act like i could careless, but its hard.

Anyway, i needed to vent and get it out. Everything happens for a reason right. Something better with come along for me and it will be better for me and Kassandra. I just could really use the help right now. I keep praying that Heavenly Father will finally answer my prayer and give us what we need. But maybe i am not ready. I dont know what else to do to be ready?? Any suggestions?